Trauma, Drama & More: Jennette McCurdy’s Explosive New Memoir

iCarly's Sam Puckett was loved by all: the witty, sarcastic, and tough character with an overwhelming love for food always kept us entertained! Sadly, however, the actress who brought Sam to life, Jennette McCurdy, was dealing with some seriously dark demons behind the scenes - suffering in many ways under the care of her mother. From physical to emotional trauma, the now thirty-year-old actress revealed all the tragic details in her new memoir. Here's what you missed.

Titled, I'm Glad My Mom Died, the memoir took readers back to the very beginning. From a very young age, Jennette was prepped for a life of fame. She discussed in her book how her mother, Debra, would unconventionally prep her for auditions by making her drink sugar-free Red Bulls. After she auditioned for the lead part in Because of Winne-Dixie and casting directors called her too "homely," Debra forced her daughter to take it all a step further. She purchased teeth whitening strips, eyelash tint, and hair dye and gave her child a makeover, hoping to mold her into the person the industry wanted her to be. Quitting wasn't an option for Debra, as according to her, Jennette would be throwing her big chance away. But that's not all...

In stark contrast to her food-loving character, Jennette described how she was forced into disordered eating habits by the actions and rules of her mother. To keep her looking "small and young," she was restricted to a "1,000-calorie diet," and by the age of 14, she was made to sit in a booster seat in the car due to her significantly low weight.

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Once she landed the role of Sam on the Nickelodeon sitcom 'iCarly,' Debra allowed her daughter to follow a more flexible lifestyle, increasing her diet restrictions. She was finally happy - her daughter had 'made it' in the acting world. On the flip side, Jennette admitted she had never been more miserable. "Her happiness came at the cost of mine. I feel robbed and exploited. Sometimes I look at her, and I just hate her. And then I hate myself for feeling that," she wrote. After her mother passed away in 2013, Jeannet realized that the traumas were there to stay. She also admitted to harboring resentment towards her former co-star, Ariana Grande. "Ariana misses work in pursuit of her music career while I act with a box. I'm pissed about it," she confessed. We're sending major love to our girl Jennette! To read the rest of her explosive story, check out the book available now.